Sorry people...temporaily using this blogskin...
as my old blogskin...let's say i'm pissed with it...
because the tagboard just wun appear...so sorry...
just bear with this skin...until i have time to look for another wan...

gtg...bye...

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I freakingly HATE my blog...the damn tagboard just wun come out...
something about error on page...damnit...i hate life...i spend like 2 hours looking for the correct account to customize my bloody tagboard...
i hate changing my damn skin...shit ass...bloody hell...

Saturday as usual...i get to wake up late...yipee...isnt that just so great...
i had been really lacking of sleep...yeap...alot...
& i get super crappy when i lack of sleep...
is either i go super high or super low...yeap...mental-ness...
Had piano lesson today...lots to practise...
After that went n see the puppies...yeap...and they look hungry...
so me,shih theng & my bro...went back & got them some milk...
as their mother is no where to be seen...
so yeah..feed them...they look so cute man...
after that we clean their place...as it look messy,wet n cold...for them...
so yeah...& the puppies...they got my leg dirtied man...ishk...
after tt went n torture bobby...with his ball..& he almost got his head stuck at the gate...lolx...

Then came home n on9...nice life...lolx...
I just love tempting tracy about the dogs...weee....
arent they just so cute..










to tracy:arent they just so cute...weee...

Si Wei

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Last day of schooling week...
went for tuition today...got quite alot of home though...
but well...at least i got 3 days to finish all of it..including my school homework...thx goodness...

I feel so weird...i have no idea why...
i mean is like i dun really know who i am anymore..
who i'm suppose to be...
what is my purpose of living...
why should i suffer like this...

Have you ever try keeping your feeling just because you know it will never be what you wanted..?
Like how things turn out so different from how you want them to be...& all you can say is just a word "sorry"...
And no matter wad you say...nothing can still replace it already...
it's gone...missing..like a puzzle...missing a piece...
feel like some part is filled with emptiness...& there's nothing you can do about it...
maybe i'm just not meant to be the person you wanted me to be...
wonder why no one ever take the time to notice that i'm not alright inside...
when i'm laughing outside...
just to cover up my fears....& at night i cry alone...
just to please myself...
for i am a girl...
who doesnt mean anything to anyone...
waiting for someone to save me from my own world.









Love isnt about finding the perfect person...
it's about seeing an imperfect person perfectly...

Si Wei
a girl lost in her own world.

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firstly...would like to say...
Happy Birthday to Evelyn.May you have a wonderful sweet 17..god bless ya.

Sketch going quite well i guess....
Not much to say...life's boring...
I just realised that we should live our lives to the fullest...instead of sulking for wad already happy...
I cant change into everything everyone wants me to be...
From now on...i wont wait...for things i know wouldnt come true...


I am just so addicted to the song now.haixx...
it's not who you are...but how people think about you...
different people have different opinion.

Somehow life seems so lonely...
but at one point...
i realised that someone will be there for you...
you dun have to look for it...
because it's always in your heart..
no matter how we're now...
you'll always have a place in my heart...
which no one can replace...
kept deep in my heart...

I shall stop being emo after this...i hope...shall try & control my emotions...stop being so emotional...wee...

Si Wei


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My blog is dead.
Really sorry about it..

I dun think i really have the mood to blog bout anything right now.
Interact duty started this week for installation day.
I have orange shoe.yipee.
i hate being lim si wei.because it sux
my revision is killing the life out of me.
i have school homeworkS.
arggh.fine.i dun feel like talking bout my pathetic life.

Dont ever say you love me if you dun mean it...
because i might do crazy things..like..
believing it.

A-Will you catch me when i fall..??
B-No...because you have to fall to learn something.






Si Wei-
I'm just a girl standing infront of a boy asking him to like me

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ok.i seriously have no mood to blog about today.
so i will just make it as short as possible.
because my blogging is kinda of boring.

Today went to school the usual time.
nothing much happen in school except that we have to do our bm lisan.
yeah...crap stuff larh..didnt do lisan during bm period though.
went for science after recess.then during geo went & get our lisan done.
& it was crap...i din even have the paper...so i just start talking anything that came into my mind.so yeah...finish it...got all A i think..

After that went & take our koko marks...i love interact wei..lolx...
yeah...before that sumthing really bad happen...
dun think i wana talk about here larh.
just wana say..i thought...
friends should come before anything...
because whenever anything happens...
friends are the one that are beside you...
supporting you when you're sad...
they are the one who goes through high & down with you.

well....anyway...enough of that...after taking koko marks went & eat...
then went & do the backdrop for interact workshop tomorrow.
i hate doing it larh...it hurts my hand...peh...& legs too...
but the whole thing was quite nice...love it...lolx..
then mel they all went to cs to buy spray...
they bought ice-kacang...i love them wei...they walk & buy it...aw...
to those people who left early...you missed it wei...lolx...

after that went home.reach home neighbour came looking for me to see puppies...
the puppies are so adorable...the mum is so pitiful larh...
i wish i could do sumthing to help...
she needs to get sum jab badly but at the same time she needs to feed her puppies...
she seems to be suffering so badly...she's so nobel wei...
haixx...hopefully she's get the jab & recover soon...
my neighbour already found a place for her...in some home...which is better than staying at someone house.
i hate people who dun appreciate dogs larh...cant you see they are cute..
if you dun wana take care of them properly...dun keep them as a pet...
i hate people who abuse their pet also...may they rot in hell...
dun ever let me see these things...ahh...










isnt that dog so cute...my neighbour dog...love him wei...cute until tak boleh tahan...

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Scrabble competition was held today at the library between the f3s.School representive are not allowed to take part to be fair to the others.sad case.

Shorter version-well,i felt so happy that all the 3C manage to get into the top 8 finalist.The only class with all the representive getting in.4 winners...one from every class (3A,3B,3C & 3D)...after that the winners play against us..!!!

Ok..the longer version is...me & serah came to school...then went finding for pn.khoo to get the laptop in order to install lexpert...for the competition.Well...teacher wasnt there yet.so we went & wait for her outside the bookshop.yipee..after tt met sharlene outside the computer room...

Took the laptop to the library.Then me & serah went & took our bags(including sharlene) to the library with all the score sheets,rules,challenge slip & other stuff...& bla bla bla...the first game started...not many challengers...so we(me,mercy,serah & sharlene) played scrabble using my scrabble board.

After game 1...looks like the laz table got their tiles mixed up...well...yeah...& they have to spend time rearranging it...sabar...After the second game finish...the 2 classes sitting at the laz table got their tiles mixed up AGAIN....& they have to rearranged it AGAIN...troublesome.Third game also the same...maybe that table is cursed...but when me,serah,sharlene & mercy played there it was OKAY wad...no mixing up tiles/bags.

Just 1 thing not happy about....sum fella...whose jawatan is unknown...came shouting at us...like she's the head of the librarians...well...pissed about it...then teachers come & scold us for being noisy in the library...great...for ur information...if we had other places to play at...we wouldnt want to play in the library.thx u...

After we finish packing...had class tambahan then went back to my all so lovely house..where i get to study abit & sleep abit & wake to eat abit...plus watch tv abit....then continued by studying abit more...& on9 abit more to make my life feel abit interesting.

ok fine...the others r boring which i dun think any1 should know...tmr got interact meeting...yipee...whoopz...class tambahan almost over...i better go continue with my books...be4...i go crazy...

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Emo-fied yesterday.So dun have the mood to update...
i shall crap bout yesterday then continue by the diagnostic test today..(which by the way is crap shit)

Went to school as usual...had assembly...
pn.mary went on with our results...
well...sue me larh...i can concentrate with every1 stressing me on how important we MUST get straight A's...wow...
anyway...went emo-ing yesterday for no reason.but no worries...still alive.
& the rest of the day was the usual typical monday life...skipped class tambahan though...with tracy...lolx..

Today..we finish our maths 1 & 2,science 1 & 2...in one day...
i bet you can see why right...because the paper is easy like shit.
i din know that the ppd think we duno what is an animal.or they just think it is so fun for us to do it..
well...wasting time larh.
why must we do the damn test in malay...wth lorh..mad r...think we kamus dwibahasa isit...
crap crap crap...1 day gone like dat...wee...
steph came over to my house today...

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ok..i m not really in a gud happy mood to post bout the hapy outing today...should i shall cut it short...potc 2 is nice...very nice...!!That's all...
my daughter,brianna..quite cute.lolx.happy bday to u...




Anyway...i shall stop bout the happy part & start my moody part...because if i keep it more,i might just explode.Here goes...

Haih...why m i so stupid larh...??
I hate the whole world...
because they just wun let me be myself.
I wish someone would take me away...from this cruel world...a place where the word "unhappiness" doesnt exist...
but noo...nobody is kind enough to do that...they just leave you alone to rot & just fade off like you never even exist...
I thank everyone for reminding me i sux at everything.i really appreciate it very much.
in fact i dun feel anything anymore...not because i'm stronger.
it's because i dun have the strength to tell myself that i'm not that kind of person...
everytime i want to be myself...sumthing just pop up & reminded me...
that i shouldnt be myself...because my friends hate my true self...so i just trying to be a person i'm not...
pretending i m happy with my all so gud life...because i have everything they dun...
well...look at it this way...i would give up everything for wad they have...but.....thats kinda impossible...
so just get on with my all so good life...pretending i m the luckiest person on earth...when i dun have a single thing...
sumtimes...i rather not know any1...not because i dun like them...
it's just...sumtimes...they think they understand you more than they think...
when they did take notice...about wad's happening to me...because they think i'm always alright...no matter wad...
i'm a human also okay...i will feel sad too..
& when the whole world seems to be falling apart...no one is there beside me...
no one i can hold on to...& every1 just leave you with all the problems to yourself...enjoying their happy life...
without even remembering they have a friend...who needs them very much...
who just wana hear "i'll be right beside you...dont worry.."...they just ignore that part...
i guess if 1 day i were to die...no one would even bother saving me or coming to my funeral...
so if one day i died...every1 in the world would be happily singing...thanking god...i'm not there already...
sumtimes...i wonder...wad will true friends do when you need them the most...
maybe nothing at all...
haihh...life was never fair to begin with...



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let's see....today we had bowling among classes...i think our class is the lowest...haixx...but i still had fun...wee...i cant belive i strike 3 times wei...quite unbelievable as i have never strike be4 in my entire life until today.ahhh....sho sho sho happy...haha...happiest day of my life...sorry if this is lame...

After that went & eat at McDonald....and after that erica (sharlene's sister) came with kim...and we saw ryan...(the one that came for sharlene party)..yeah...and after that the sisters started fighting...very obscenely...u shouldnt really wana hear it...it's scary...& they consider it as a conversation...sharlene started taking erica hairband & throwing it everywhere...& finally it landed on a woman head...me & mel quickly hid ourselves...

Went & take neoprints after that...well...yeah...& so coincidence that me,steph,sharlene & grandma were wearing black...& bodyglove (except for grandma)...but who cares....S4...lolx...after tt went home....

Went to tebrau city just now to pick my bro up...he went n watch potc...i m going to watch it tmr...aih...cant wait sial....anyway....i think i better stop here....but there's another thing i wana say first....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BARBIE RINA IZZY AMANDA NANCY LIM CHANG KIT SHERN CHANGKUL also known as Brianna/my daughter..happy 15th birthday tomorrow...maybe you have a wonderful time.

Si Wei...




Stephanie & Me


Sarah & Sharlene






stephanie & sarah




me & sharlene

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i.am.back.
lolx...ok fine...now i m perfectly fine to blog bout wad happen yesterday.

Got choir practise the whole day....sharlene didnt come cause harvenna forgot to tell sharlene she's not goin school.Joy to the world...i was left alonee....started singing & singing.And then during recess...found out that 3C & 3D had spot check...woah...scary sial...so thx god i got choir...or i m so DEAD lo....

After 12...didnt went for choir...as i got tuition...yeah...& i seriously wun be going for it...who wants to take their trials in port dickson...mad r...must be larh...hahahaha....anyway...went sumwhere...then when we reach school...mel they all were scrapping the wall...so decided to help out....until i didnt want to leave...it's fun!!!!wee...

Tuition as usual...got maths homework....science left 1 more chapter....i shall start studying the rest of the subjects which i have already revise abit...lolx...i think i better stop here...need to prepare for bowling liao...aih...i sux at it...haha...

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ok.i.am.very.pissed.now.
So please dun make me lose my anger on you.
What is wrong with people...??Arggh...

I dun think i really have the mood to blog now...totally tired...and sum ppl just have to piss me off...aih...my life...it sux big time larh....peh...tmr got bowling...but guess wad...sunday gonna watch pirates of the carribean...cool...cant wait larh....

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I just change my skin.dun ask me why...just bored with my old skin...wee...the tagboard is still undone...coz i still dun have the mood to do it now...YESH...you need a MOOD to do sumthing...

Today went to christian class instead of the buddhist class again...who wants to hear bout all those crazy shit which you dun understand at all.Well...today they showed a video bout sum ppl...no idea wad-so-ever.And my life go bla bla bla after that.

Guess wad i HATE the most...ppl calling me when i'm SLEEPING...for god's sake...i m tired to the max...and you come and miss call me...so many times...and i pick up then you hang up...fck larh...sorry if i m crazy or wad...but i just hate being disturbed from my SLEEP...i need sleep ask much as i can get.thank you.

Anyway...pirates of the carribean is out...yipee...going this sun...woohoo....cant wait wei...i wana go watch it...yayness..anyway...tmr got choir camp...should i go...i mean my homework & studies already very behind...plus my trials is coming...bowling on sat...i wonder m i in my right mind to agree to go with stephanie...peh...i'm dead...know why...coz i sux at bowling.

I gtg liao...SLEEP...i need you...so yeah...will do sumthing bout the blog when i feel like...

Si Wei

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The concert amal was over.was quite ok i guess.

woke up early in the morning by grandma's sms...asking me to wake up...lolx.anyway...reach school started warming up.then went & eat.after that got up the bus to eden hotel.start practising awhile...then go to the changing room to put our makeup.

sharlene & sarah helped me with my makeup...as i only put makeup once in my whole life...i mean i only put makeup once since 15yrs of me living in this world.peh...and i sux wei...with makeup...peh...& none of them would let me try putting makeup on their faces...well...i think tt a good thing...i might turn them into a clown larh...lolx.

they went into the ballroom...watch some performance then went to the changing room again to get ready for our turn to perform...luckily we pulled it off...but the one of the mike quite near to me fell...peh...

then the reshmonu guy appear...and some people were so gila bout it...including sharlene who wanted to go on stage & pull his pants down...well...she didnt do it of course...she just ran up to reshmonu to take his picture...twice...unbelievable...after changing out of our costume also..sharlene went & take his autograph...sicko wei....and food was finally served...phew...was i hungry...sharlene was even hungry...lolx...

then bla bla bla...i m so lazy to update more bout it larh...will just put some of the pictures...haha.
me & calista






sharlene & me






me & yen min






sarah sharlinn & sharlene






reshmonu sharlene's favourite.







Si Wei

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My blog is dead.Yipee.

Ok...i shall stop talking crap & start talking bout my sucky life.

Mon...tracy came my house after extra class doing kh kerja kayu.i finally finish my kerja kayu after like 2 hours of doing tt engsel thing which obviously sux to the core..Found some information on racial integration.bla bla bla...go tuition.

Tuesday was suppose to go home & enjoy sleeping...but nooo...we ended up at sharlene shop finishing our portfolio & poster....and we did the poster in like 3 hours...unbelievable wei...lolx...but yeah...i went a little bit over on the glitter part...wee...oppz....then go home & enjoy my long waited sleep.

Wednesday got choir practise...i cant really remember what happen though...memory lost...lolx....

Thursday had full dress rehersal...aih...y muz i be short...this is just so unfair larh....very unfair...i hate being so so so short...y cant i be taller abit...but i still ended up with that shirt...so who cares...had interact meeting after school....the handover was very sad n touching...& congrats to the new BOD....went on with choir until 5....then go to tui...and at that time...i guess i wasnt myself...me & serah were practically very very high...until chitra cant wait to get into the car...oppz..& we went laughing non stopduring tuition...cause of it=lack of sleep.in conclusion,get more sleep or become a panda.

Today had choir practise from 7.30-12.30....not really dat tiring...but still...yeah...and apple so poor thing...kena from all of us...lolx...we're just so mean larh...went to tuition today....finally get to learn bout space & exploration...it's just so cute wei....oppz...i sounded like i like it..tt bad larh...

Anyway...i think i better be off now...need to go practise my piano & sleep...i really need alot of sleep...tmr need to reach school by 8am in the morning...and the concert ends at 5...there goes my whole week...& sun...spastic fair...just great...i m just so left behind in my studies...i guess after this i m gonna start rushing all my work...be4 i get any demerit points...anyway...i dun really feel happy now.=..just feel so down & all the memories just start coming back...

I just hate myself for being a dumb girl.

I just hate myself for doing things i know i will regret

I just hate myself for not grabbing it when it's still here

I just hate myself for being useless at times

I just hate myself for not being able to do everything right & ended up with rubbish

I just hate myself so much.




Si Wei

second time i m writing this post...thx to my comp which shut down when i was almost finishing it dat day.

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Brazil wonlost...aih..dammit larh...world cup seems sucky now man...well....england lost too...not tt suprised though...i din manage to watch finish brazil match...because too engrossed with my sleep...damn wei...ishk...

Anyway went out today with serah,brian,melanie,fann,arif n ian....fann went for her duty after eating lunch...mel went home...ian went walking so only left the four of us watching SUPERMAN...omg wei...he's so freakingly cute larh...ahhh...so so so cute....ok i shall stop..lolx...

Nothing much to say.


Have you every wondered why things turn out so different from what we wanted?

Why cant we do everything right & never regret it?

How can someone make you life miserable without even trying?

Why do we like the someone on earth?

Why m i such a fool?

Why cant i get things right?

Why do i need to be alive here?


So many questions...haixx...gtg.bye.

Si Wei


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