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Si Wei 림사위
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23 May 1991
Ngee Ann Poly [BA/ACC]
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title: my lifely life.
date: Monday, November 27, 2006
time:4:29 PM
Hello invisible readers of this blog...!!!i'm back...woot...

Sorry for not blogging everyday nowadays..life's great...and yeap...i'm happy...and and...i'm definitely not HIGH yet...hehe...i'm normal...oh yeah...when did i last blogged...??Thursday...woohoo...okok...let's see...

Friday
Had choir practise as usual...and arif heard us singing...woohoo...nice sial...played some game...and there's this game where we're suppose to remember like 30 words and pass it on...haha...and it turn out funny like hell...lol...then sara,stephanie,sarah,eva,elyssa,and a few more people did a sketch...was cute...haha..then sang go the distance...after awhile it started raining...so pn.doreen decided to let us off early...woohoo...scared we get stuck at the flood...yayness...reach home...went to the tv...lol...and that's all i can rmb doing that day...lol...i'm going to be a nenek soon...sad...

ps : didnt manage to upload the video.sorry.

















haha...the other group forgot their line.

Saturday
Woke up quite early thx to my dad...haha...well...he went on nagging and nagging...so obviously...my brain told me to get up so my brain can have some peace...hehe...i was ABIT high..yeap...was being high with my bro...sad for him...after that,followed my mum to my aunt apartment....after that we went shopping for tv & fridge...wee...i so love my aunt new tv wei...i feel so tempted to steal it...wee....anyone care to help me...cheh...jkjk...

After buying our stuff..my aunt wanted to buy a pair of jeans...so yeah...we stopped by at tebrau city..went walking and walking looking at sweater...and my aunt like a sweater...but well...shall buy tmr...since we're going singapore...after that had dinner at...*i cant remember where*..and woohoo...it's nice...japanese food...haha...bento...wahahahaa...opps...sorry brian...well,went walking around again...with my aunt...

Sunday
Well..let's say i wake up super early...going into singapore...haha...i haven been to singapore since end of last year...feel so weird...hehehe...and by one hour...me & my mum reached singapore edi...*my bro didnt follow because he loves maple more*...and yeap...reach my aunt house about 10...then went and walk around...and geez...they even have a study room...!!!damn...haha...

Took a bus to woodland for shopping...yeap...well,mainly we just look around only...even went to some winter clothing shop...but well,i have no idea what to buy.haha...after that,decided to have lunch at suntec city...so...took the mrt...which was about 1 hour...got down at *cant rmb where* and walk about 10...and eat!!!haha...after that...shopping again...haha...

I was suppose to buy a boots...and yeap...after trying for ages...that was the last pair there...-.-"...dammit...so we decided to go to orchard road and shop for it...and off we went...took the mrt again to orchard...where it was packed with alot of people...and yeap...walked to ngee ann city...and i finally bought that pair of boots...weee..followed my aunt went walking again....and about 5 plus...we decided to sit a bus back to my aunt apartment...thx god we didnt wait long for the bus to come...hehe...

Reach my aunt house about 6 plus like that...so went up her apartment awhile...and damn...it's nice...haha...and the stress part was my aunt wanted to bring a theater system back to jb...which is damn dangerous...haha...so after long discussion...my aunt decided to follow us...mwhahaa...and the singapore kastam...damn...he was freaking slow...and YAY...we pass the kastam...or not...the things would have been confiscated...haha...dropped my aunt at cs...then head back...
















the balloon doggie...it looks so freaking cute larh...!!!!






















the christmas tree..huge one...haha...























me with the christmas tree.

Today i went to check my eyes at cs...the horror of checking ur eyesight...if you guys dont know...i'm freakingly afraid to check my eyesight...phobia...because everytime i check it increases...and at one period it practically increase by 100 every year...damn...that was horrible...

First the fella tested my eyes with the machine and it came out...600!!!!!wtf...that's so...vrihgdufieg...nouuu...after that he use another machine to check my vein...because i'm using contacts u see...and bloody hell...the light...it hurts my freaking eyes...well...after that he tested my eyes manually and guess wad...it's only 500...crap machine...i almost had a heart attack...and my power only increase by 50 which was quite ok since i haven checked it since like 2 and a half year ago...haha...

Had to redo my spectacle lens as it already crack...haha...i'm a genius...woohoo...and bought some monthly contact lens...as i'm already wearing the last pair i have...weee...my bro bought the eragon book at popular...geez...why cant he wait for grandma...isit that harddd???anyway had lunch then went to aunty chin & uncle sem house for awhile...haha...and went home to rest...i'm still TIRED since god knows when...

btw..i gtg...i need to practise my piano in order to go for harvenna party tmr..anyone care to recommend tuition for next year...??please??leave it in the tagboard or comment...thanks..haha...that's all...till then...bye people...

ps : tracy,me & arif finished the puzzle...haha.


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title: poser day XD
date: Tuesday, November 21, 2006
time:10:29 PM
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living in this dark fairy tale




Grandma...i'm back...lol...hahaha..paiseh haven blogged for so many days...ok let's see....

Saturday
i woke up early in the morning,thinking grandma would come about 11/12 as she said...so i waited and waited...but well...grandma was stuck at her mum shop...and so i waited...lunch time was over...still no sign of grandma...after 4 hours or more...grandma finally came...phew...lol...and we went watching goong...hehe...then we went for ivy party...

Well,quite alot of people was there...like chen hui,my ke ai friend,chen yan,elean,denise,steph and lots more...hehe...anyway...me & grandma were VERY FORGETFUL...until we forgot to bring ivy's present...lol...by the way...grandma & me were very mad that day...we went taking lots of pics...haha...
















from left : chen hui,me,sarah,clarissa & chen yan
















us with Ivy(the girl in black).
















fang hao & me

















group pic!!*minus a few people*
















me & grandma happily lying on the sofa.we're sharing it...>.<..

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grandma & me.


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us again...!!!

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sarah,steph & me.


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me,steph,jasmynn & grandma.


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clockwise : steph,chen hui,me & grandma.


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from top : steph,grandma,me & chen hui.


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us again.suddenly i feel so sampat-ed.


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bad grandma...drink beer...!!!!mwhahaha....

and the last pic for the party....

jeng jeng jeng...

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dont they look like a couple...!!!!shin rong r...tak boleh sit like that liao...ha...

there's plenty of pictures...but they are all in chen hui's camera...so too bad...this is all i have.

Monday
Didnt went for choir...aih...nevermind...i shall just be a lazy bum...hehe...but well...accompanied mum to tebrau...bro went and watch casino royale with his friends...nothing much though...and guess wad...i got addicted to a show again...thx to my bro...haha...and yeap...we watch it like until 2am in the morning...ha...

Wednesday
Went for choir today...see...i'm being rajin...geez...who believe those words wei...played pictionary after our warm-up...and i dont like it...because i dont know how to act out a doll...!!!!no fair lerh...why a freaking doll...that's the only thing i know...haha...but who cares....keep singing go the distance..nothing much already...

aih..and i most probably will have to miss this time choir performance...all thank to the bastard travel agency...that bloody company...cancelled our trip...so my aunt went and book another one...and i'm not quite sure...all she email-ed my mum was the flight is on the 13 dec...!!!crap larh crap...~~~

that's all i guess...
shall post next week...ahahaha...i'm addicted to the tv now...

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title: choir first day of games.
date: Friday, November 17, 2006
time:8:26 PM
Choir practise.
as usual...started with warm-up and after that games...lol....agnes was damn high for musical chairs...i swear...she was screaming...haha...make me even more nervous...lol...eva won the game...agnes got second....lol...good for u agnes...and the form 1's suggested a game..5 people in a group are required to whole tight to each other and not get pulled away when another team try to pull our team members to their team..the team with the most members win...and since we have time...we played it...and that game is so damn ganas...(i swear it's very).

Team names & their members:
Grip (Agnes, Kimberly, Suba, Christina & Ju Ann)
ChickenNenek (Janice, Nessa, Su Ann, April & Si Wei)
Nescafe (Jia Hui, Catherine, Wei Fang, Jacqueline & one-more-i've-forgotten-her-name)
Weirdo (Jolynn, Sara, Eva, Yen Huay & Elyssa)

I suffered...yeap...i cant rmb which team bombed us first...but well...they target me...and boy...5 people pulling one person...i was grabbing to janice so hard...haha...and vanessa *i think*...then the second time is weirdo...i almost died...and agnes...i swear their team is lagi ganas than us...you can see when they pulled all of us together...and everyone was on top of me...now you can see why i suffer huh...but well...we still manage to pull it through...woot...lol...but well...weirdo damn geng...the broke up the whole nescafe group...shocked...and agnes...i pity you too...haha...kena so badly...

Well,everyone settled down after that and we did some singing...gemilang...then tea break...lol...i didnt went down because i wasnt hungry...lol..then started warm up again...and costume designing activity...i still like the baju kurung...haha....all i can think of choir costume is BAJU KURUNG...hahaha...well nvm...still drew something...lol...

Went home after singing a few times of gemilang...lol...nothing much...went and sleep after that...lol...i so love sleeping...i guess that's all for today...no pictures...shall get it from jan or vanessa when they post...lol...because they were the ones with their camera....haha...

ps : no emo post lately...sucks larh...ishk ishk...arif should be happy about that huh....>.<

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title: death note...
date: Thursday, November 16, 2006
time:9:16 PM
First of all,the last entry was quite emo...so sorry for making everyone emo.*not like anyone care right*.ok back to today,had choir practise...teacher had a jamuan something & we went down to eat...and boy i got a shock of my life wei...agnes never makan a tosai be4...i was almost about to knock my head until i found out she never wash her plates be4...i memang shock until cannot shock...bengang until cannot bengang already...but well...thank you sharlene...for helping me & agnes wash our plates...

After choir,waited for arif in front of convent...lol...he went hilltop...yeah...and damn...memang pekak larh...shout his name so many times pun tak dengar...haha...almost the whole class was shouting...lol...arif arif...must go dig ur ears wei...hahaha...*he gonna kill me when he sees this*...and after waiting for awhile...we got up a bus...by the time we reach cs...me & grandma went to the toilet to change...lol...

Well...me,grandma & arif decided to check the movie time & stuff...so sharlene & suba went and buy for food...FOOD...lol...and almost 2pm only we got to eat...who fault r...huh huh huh...we decided to watch DEATH NOTE which sharlene watch casino royale...by the way...i watch death note not because there's a word DEATH there...and not because it's an emo show....so arif...i'm not emo...and i do not want to watch happy feet about a penguin...because it irritates me yesterday when i went to the website...bleh....

Went and buy ivy farewell present...me & grandma shared it...lol...i'm gonna miss ivy...aih...why is everyone moving after pmr...crap larh...argghh....went and watch death note after that...was nice...lol...and the guy...he's so weird and kinda cute larh...he looks like ju-on...and the death god...he's so so so damn funny sial...apple...haha....



























that's all for today i guess...lol...i currently cant think of anything to update...haih...sad life...sad sad sad...

Perhaps Love

uhn jeh yuht duhn guhn jee gee uhk nah jeen ah nah
jah kkoon nae muh ree gah nuh roh uh jee ruhp duhn shee jahk
hahn doo buhn ssheek dduh oh reu duhn saeng gahk
jah kkoo neul uh gah suh joh geum dang hwang seu ruh oon ee mah eumb

yuhl eel ee ah neel soo eet dah goh
sah soh hahn mah eum ee rah goh
nae gah neh geh jah koo (neh geh jah koo)
mahl eul hah neun geh uh saek hahn guhl

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo
mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yoo
hn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH
~suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

jee geum nae mah eum eul suhl myung hah ryuh hae doh
nee gah nae gah dweh uh mahm eul neu kkee neun bang buhp ppoong een deh

ee mee nahn nee ahn eh eet neun guhl
nae ahn eh nee gah eet deu shee
oo reen suh roh eh geh (suh roh eh geh)
ee mee geel deul yuh jeen jee mohl lah

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo
mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yoo
hn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH
~suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

saeng gahk hae boh myuhn (saeng gahk hae boh myuhn) mah neun soon gahn sohk eh (sohk eh)
uhl mah nah mah neun (YEAH~) suhl leh eem ee ssuht neun jeejoh geum neu je
un geu mahn keum nahn duh jahl hae jool kkeh yo

hahm kkeh hahl kkeh yo choo uhk ee dwehl gee uhk mahn suhl mool hahl kkeh yo
dah sheen nae gyuh teh suh dduh nah jee mah yo
jjahl beun soon gahn joh chah doh bool ahn hahn guhl yo
nae geh muh mool luh jwuh yo~ OOH
~geu dael ee ruh geh mah nee (geu toh rohk mah nee)sarang hah goh ee ssuh yo (geu dae yuh yah mahn) ee mee~

translate

I don't know when it all started
When my head became dizzy with thoughts of you

These thoughts would often pop up in my mind
I feel anxious as my heart expands towards you

It's nothing.. it's just a little thing
Your words are awkward to me Is it love?

If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you
It screams out for the whole world to hear
Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?
We've finally met.. finally found love

If I wanted to show you how I feel
The only way would be for you to become me

I'm already inside of you
Just like you're inside of me

To each other [to each other]
We may already be too accustomed

Is it love? If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you
It screams out for the whole world to hear
Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?
We've finally met.. finally found love

When I think about it [when I think about it]
I realize how many moments there were when my heart trembled
I'll try as harder as I was late in realizing my feelings
I'll be with you, I'll only give you fond memories
Please don't ever leave me again
Even the shortest moments without you make me uneasy
Please stay by me~

I already love you so much (you're the only one)


so sweet right...ahhh...but i still prefer aeng mu sae...so damn freakingly sad larh...ahhh...i'm mad....over korean dramas...



ps : the show isnt about APPLE...haha....

What to do
- get details & confirm the korean trip.
- do some homework on the korea trip.
- pack my korean trip stuff.
- go singapore to buy winter clothing...if i'm going to korea.
- use the Pizza Hut voucher (valid till 31 Oct '06).
- buy birthday present for my neighbour.
- tidying my revision books.
- online everyday.
- get addicted to korean shows.
- watch princess hours & my girl over and over again.until i get bored of it.
- practise my piano exam pieces and scales.
- pray hard that i get 7A's for PMR.- do not play maple.no matter what.
- lend tracy my bro's darren shan books.
- lend serah my girl dvd.
- help sinloo find form 3 textbook.
- update sharlene's modeling picture when mel send it to me.
- try not to be so emo (according to friends i'm emo-ing)
- return darren's planet shakers cd
- prom : go or dont go?
- lend wit lyn meteor garden 1.
- exercise to slim down.fat!!!
- try reading some books.
- kill the siwei i once knew.
- stop anisa from leaving convent.no matter wad.
- try not to ruin the debate.
- ignore my brother.
- get back inuyasha from serah.
- get darren his farewell gift since he's going.
- trying to get myself into anisa school where i can have a korean roomate.
- be semangated and go for choir practise.
- get ivy her farewell gift.
- study form 4 subjects.
- paint my room wall + re deco my room
- look for tuition.i'm damn semangated now.
- go for harvenna birthday party & buy her present.
- do something useful.

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title: my so called emo life.
date: Tuesday, November 14, 2006
time:2:56 PM
The last day of form 3 just came like that.time sure passes so fast...awhile ago we're still preparing for our pmr & sitting for our pmr...and now...it's the end of our form 3 life.gosh...i feel so sad.form 4 is coming soon..very soon actually.lots of friends are leaving....anis already did...haih...=(...and it's time for HOLIDAYS....okay...i love HOLIDAYS...but boy...i miss my friends too...aih...

To think that we would still be schooling until this friday...and suddenly this morning,pn.mary just came & told us...form 3 don't have to come for school...it just seems so fast...well..will still be seeing agnes sara they all...choir...lol...yeap...didnt have time to go up to class and say bye to all my friends...haih...sad sad sad...went for choir practise the whole day....was quite relax though...and damn...esther & *i dont know how to spell her name* was super funny larh...

lol...yeap...and there's choir tmr too...but well,i'm so damn lucky...my piano teacher need to go singapore for something urgent...hehe...so yeap...i'm free to go without cracking my head changing my replacement time...mwhaha...but grandma & sharlene not going...babi larh...babi....bus was damn empty...only convent & 3 seta girls....lol...but well...i slept until almost reaching my house.

got home & waited for my lunch until 3...lol...but well...i was too full after eating it...lol...and then.....i went to SLEEP...lol...yes i'm tired...i have no idea why but i so love sleeping...maybe i was a pig in my last life...and now online...ishk...i shall try to restrict myself from coming online....really...

guess what happen in the conversation with me,sarah,sharlene & tracy...

we're talking until suddenly....

sharlene : i'm depressed...
sharlene :i hate being single...
me :what's wrong with being single...??
tracy : yeah
sharlene : i'll end up like siwei
tracy : what's wrong with that?
sarah : siwei always emo wad
me : i emo got anything to do with single meh?
sharlene : >.<
sarah : erm..
me : erm no..
sarah : erm YES.

and bla bla bla it went on...

i admit i do emo...what's wrong with that...well,fine..put it that way then..i emo because i'm single...i guess you guys are happy about it huh...yeah...go laugh ur heads off...and what's so bad about being depressed huh...i dont think anyone can be happy 24/7...so yeah i'm done with my damn emo post...so if you guys wont mind...i'm getting back to my emo world...happy...??Anyone wants to say anything...like stop being emo or dont be depressed...??Get me a doctor or shoot me...thank you.


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emo pick-up lines.EMO EMO EMO.



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EMO.


emo emo emo...happy??i bet you are...shall update more tmr...


ps : agnes i found the song..!!!ahhh....so nice wei...lol...

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title: as emo as ever.
date: Sunday, November 12, 2006
time:10:23 PM
Ok.first...sorry for not replying those messages on the tagboard..i was away from the comp this few days..thinking about stuff plus abit of emo-ing...and i actually survived it.well...i gotta say i feel weird coming online now.I PREFER THE TV...zomg...and now.i feel so lazy to update on the choir farewell party.so yeah...whoever who want to know about it please go to agnes blog.

By the way,as i was looking through friendster...i found this in the bullentin board.

Once upon a time there was an island
where all
the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness,Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings
that the island was going to sink to the bottom ofthe ocean.
All the feelings prepared their boats to
leave.

Love was the only one that stayed.
She wanted to preserve the island paradise until
the last possible moment.
When the island was almost totally under, Love
decided it was time to leave.She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grandboat.
Love asked Richness, "Can I come with youon your boat?"
Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of
silver and gold on my boat and there would be no
room for you anywhere.

"Love then decided to ask Vanity, who was passing
in a beautiful vessel, for help.
Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please."
"I can't help you," Vanity said, "You are all wet and willdamage my beautiful boat.

"Next Love saw Sadness passing by. Lovesaid, "Sadness, please let me go with you.
"Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but I just
need to be alone now.
"Then Love saw Happiness. Love cried out,
"Happiness, please take me with you."But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't
hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry.Then she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will
take you with me.
"It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed
that she forgot to ask the elder his name.
When they arrived on land the elder went on his way.
Love realized how much she owed the elder.Love then found Knowledge and asked,
"Who was it that helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered. "But why did
Time help me when no one else would?"
Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdomand sincerity answered,
"Because only
Time is capable of understanding
how great Love is." ....


Well,that's kinda true huh.time is all we need to heal everything. I think i'm done blogging for the day..abit tired & still emo-ing...so people...you dont have to bother about me if i'm going mad and emo or stuff.

What to do
- get details & confirm the korean trip.
- do some homework on the korea trip.
- go singapore to buy winter clothing...if i'm going to korea.
- use the Pizza Hut voucher (valid till 31 Oct '06).
- buy birthday present for my neighbour.
- tidying my revision books.
- online everyday.
- try to go to school everyday.
- get addicted to korean shows.
- watch princess hours & my girl over and over again.until i get bored of it.
- sleep more that 12 hours per day.
- practise my piano exam pieces and scales.
- think of something to fill up my empty boring life after pmr.
- pray hard that i get 7A's for PMR.
- do not play maple.no matter what.
- lend tracy my bro's darren shan books.
- lend serah my girl dvd.
- help sinloo find form 3 textbook.
- update sharlene's modeling picture when mel send it to me.
- try not to be so emo (according to friends i'm emo-ing)
- return darren's planet shakers cd
- prom : go or dont go?
- lend wit lyn meteor garden 1
- exercise to slim down.fat!!!
- lepak less?i seriously doubt it.
- try reading some books.
- kill the siwei i once knew.
- stop anisa from leaving convent.no matter wad.
- try not to ruin the debate.
- ignore my brother.
- get back inuyasha from serah.
- get darren his farewell gift since he's going.
- trying to get myself into anisa school where i can have a korean roomate...!!!!

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title: love.what is it?
date: Thursday, November 09, 2006
time:10:54 PM








Love.

This thing called love, that we search for all our lives.
This thing called love, that we can't live without.
This thing called love, that we die for.
What in the world is it?

You may be quite surprised to know that there is very little real true love in this world,
and much of the expressed love,
upon closer examination,
is nothing more than a selfishness being displayed.
To want another to be happy, truly happy, with or without you...is real love.
To trust another's love and not need to have it out of some control...is real love.
To truly trust a partner, without needing to know of their comings and goings...is real love.
To love because of want instead of need...is real love.
For a relationship to be based in any control situation, whether physical or emotional or mental...is not real love.
To have someone stay with you out of guilt, pity or fear...is not real love.
To have someone with you because it makes YOU feel good...is not real love.
To be with someone because it makes THEM feel good...is not real love.

If love MUST have a promise or guarantee of tomorrow, it is not real love.
Real love is shared in the present without the need to think of "next."
It is the giving of one's self to make another happy,the joy of sharing the NOW.
We can't force love to give or to be given.
Love is nature at work.
We live in a non-verbal world, and yet we make it so hard in our lives because of our need to have words and meanings to everything.
Life has no meaning beyond itself, love has no meaning beyond itself, and the need to label and define these things is the element that destroys the "nature" of it.
For a couple to be together out of want is the ideal.

What if couples, EACH and EVERY morning had to renew their vows, make a TRUTHFUL decision BEFORE the day began to remain together, a TRULY free choice.
How many would be together today?
In life, we SHOULD examine our situations in this light and act accordingly because people who become unhappy with one another can have it turn into a very destructive force in a short time if they but "pretend" and go through "role-playing" in their relationships.
Being honest and truthful with ourself is where LOVE begins.
Most can't do that, and they remain in situations involving another; thus, we have TWO lives being controlled in dishonesty.
Is it any wonder, from this point, why people resort to denial and escapeism to get through their day?
Are people living a lie, happy with themself, and how can they give happiness to another?
Do people really communicate in honesty, or is it only so much lip service?

What do we expect from ourselves?
What do others expect from us?
Is a bad relationship BETTER than being alone?
Should people who are unable to communicate stay together?
Do two wrongs make a right?
Do two negatives make a positive?
And yet, the word SELFISH will enter strongly into this subject.
If you stay in a relationship because YOU are AFRAID to leave, for ANY reason, it is selfish. Staying for LESS than the right reason, if you stay in a relationship because you feel sorry, out of guilt, out of pity, you are being CONTROLLED and allowing someone to be selfish about YOUR life.
A key issue, and fairly important, LIFE...TIME.

To be able to offer yourself, your all, to each and every person that you encounter in your life, without question...is real love.
To not have to draw any boundries or limits on what you would be willing to offer a stranger...is real love.
To accept and trust each and every person until they give you a reason not to...is real love.
To want to help everyone to be happy...is real love.
To give everyone your love and your time and your energy...is real love.
Love, REAL love, is not something said, but it is what is done.

To reach out and touch...is real love. To care about a stranger and talk to them...is real love.
To offer your friendship and to be there for everyone...is real love.
How much real love do you know?
To be at peace with yourself...is real love....


*got this from a friend blog.


Love.a word used very often by everyone.but seems complicating just to define it.love can make someone the happiest person on earth but on the other hand making another person the saddest person on earth.Well,from wad i see...i never experienced real love.everything seems to be blur now.nothing makes sense.

Does love really exist??

-Love often slip through the back door when we least expect it to.And when we notice it,it's already on it's way out.-


-If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours.If it doesnt, it never was yours to begin with.
Who do you turn to when the only person who can stop your crying is the one who made you cry?-


-Don't wait for the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without.-

-You ask me what's more important: You or my life. I'll say my life and you'll walk away never knowing that you're my life.-


Some words i found.well...it's meaningful people.so go through it...i'm off emo-ing.



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title: debate scary.
date: Wednesday, November 08, 2006
time:10:13 PM
















give me a reason.


Hmm...yesterday was quite boring.everyone ponteng for their craze stress reliever game maple.yeah...so i was left with tracy after i got shoo-ed out of the comp room.and i got to class looking shocked as tracy was SLEEPING...i mean she sleeps in bus alot...she's even sleeping then...omg..but well...in the end i slept too...lol...i found a nice & wonderful spot by the wall.plus it's not too cold or too hot...just nice...haha...and boy did i sleep until it was recess when someone screamed at me to wake up.but seriously...sleep is the best thing to do if you got plenty of time...and it doesnt make u fat...lol...!!!

Anyway after recess went to comp room to discuss debate stuff because suba & alyaa wanted to discuss it there...serah din come...was quiet quiet in bus...compared to monday...lol...justin was also emo-ing...maybe coz he miss his edmund. .lol..was online until quite late yesterday discussing with serah,alyaa & suba about debate stuff..some misunderstanding on points..thx serah for everything..and sorry too...

Today debate in the hall...was scary shit larh...the minute i hold the mic my head went completely blank and shocked....anyway...i offically conclude that i have stage fright and i'm bad at debating...damn...sorry to my teamates...really sorry...and congrats to fann for getting best speaker.Seniors had a talk with us for awhile...

Then went back to class where it's time for UNO...!!!Well,it was hell to our classmates...me,anu,vivee,tracy,serah,harvenna & mercy was damn bising...ok maybe not all...but mostly was me & anu...lol..was totally high again...singing song...well...you can ask tracy about it...lol...tracy's going mad about it...oh wait...even porn is going mad about it...haha...weee...sorry guys for torturing you all...i didnt mean it...i was just temporaily insane...!!!mwhahaha....

our school magazine is finally here...!!!and serah...you better right...or i fly away...!!!T.T...no fair wey...you write for tracy din write for me...that's all for today...

I'm pissed at everything right now.so yeah...you better shut up if you want to ask me to get you something like songs or ask me question which i dont know or tell me nobody's perfect.so anyway...have a nice day tomorrow people...haha...

ps : changed my blogskin...lol...


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title: my pissful life.
date: Monday, November 06, 2006
time:8:24 PM







hate.



I am pissed.but no worries...i'm not pissed at any one of you and certainly not maple...so those maplers you can put ur mind at ease...

I'm so pissed at my brother.
i demand for a new brother.damn...why am i stuck with such annoying,irritating,unreasonable brother which i totally cant stand...why oh why....????All i want is ask my friend something...and since that friend isnt on msn...obviously maple is like the only way...see why i hate online games...but anyway i shall not insult what so called stress relievers to my dear friends...

so i'm offically saying i'm not speaking to my bro until my anger is gone.so no one is allowed to mention my brother...or get lost...he's out of my damn life...nvm...i shall use steff method....imagine stabbing my brother in the back non stop...then throw him on the floor...and skin him alive. with my parang..go cook in in 8 different ways and feed my dog.then go hang his bones as decoration....i shall put that in my wishlist!!!

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Anyway today was anugerah cemerlang.the thing i hate about anugerah cemerlang is it's boring and wasting our time...crap larh...was practically going to fall asleep until steff came...lol...my saviour...!!!hahaha...i was quite obssess with mercy head band...which looks like a freak on me...sad...

had a meeting about the debate...well...we waited at 3A until after 40 mins rebekah came and call us down because pn.yeoh was in 3B...bleh...after pn.yeoh briefs us on the topic and stuff...we went to the comp room.lol...was talking halfway and mel came...haha...serah tried on the all school uniform and mel took a video of it...lol...i haven seen it though...but she was definitely screaming alot...lol

went down...uncle was already there...lol...well...bus was very high today...very...tracy got so depressed with me singing the song my pony is over the ocean....lol....well...at first she said i was depressed for singing that song...then...justin didi sang it with me..so she said we both are depressed....and well...in the end she gave up and said she was depressed...too bad for ya tracy....!!!!

haha well...we found out something...edmund is gay...hahaha....well...me n justin got high...very high...unfortunately edmund & yan rui (i think) was infront of us...lol...justin was like wow....gay...lol...and then justin said something in chinese like hitting is loving some shit...and edmund wanted to hit him..cant rmb what happen after that but...edmund started giving justin the "i'm interested in you" look...all of us were like eeeeeee.....damn disgusting larh...lol...so funny sial they all...

was so mad in bus...lol...i seriously pity tracy lorh...me & justin were high to the max sial...singing songs and stuff...lol...and btw...i stole tracy suduko book...lol...i'm evill...lol...nvm larh...i shall return it to her tmr...if i remember...lol...ok that all about my high and so mad life in bus...been ages since i went so high...so people...if you want to go mad...sit at the back seat...confirm go mad de...lol...

What to do :
- get details & confirm the korean trip.
- do some homework on the korea trip.
- go singapore to buy winter clothing...if i'm going to korea.
- use the Pizza Hut voucher (valid till 31 Oct '06).
- buy birthday present for my neighbour.
- tidying my revision books.
- nline everyday.
- try to go to school everyday.
- get addicted to korean shows.
- watch princess hours & my girl over and over again.until i get bored of it.
- sleep more that 12 hours per day.
- practise my piano exam pieces and scales.
- think of something to fill up my empty boring life after pmr.
- pray hard that i get 7A's for PMR.
- do not play maple.no matter what.
- lend tracy my bro's darren shan books.
- lend serah my girl dvd.
- help sinloo find form 3 textbook.
- update sharlene's modeling picture when mel send it to me.
- try not to be so emo (according to friends i'm emo-ing)
- return darren's planet shakers cd
- prom : go or dont go?
- lend wit lyn meteor garden 1
- exercise to slim down.fat!!!
- blog less crap?- lepak less?i seriously doubt it.
- try reading some books.
- kill the siwei i once knew.
- stop anisa from leaving convent.no matter wad.
- try not to ruin the debate.
- ignore my brother.
- get back inuyasha from serah.
- get darren his farewell gift since he's going.
- trying to get myself into anisa school where i can have a korean roomate...!!!!


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title: a long day on friday.
date: Sunday, November 05, 2006
time:12:53 PM
Friday
Christmas concert
i'm too lazy to talk about the whole things and make someone fall asleep..because the only funny thing was sharlene got so freaked out by the little boy...yes...she was screaming for tracy..was laughing like hell...lol....i shall just post the pictures...














christmas tree.















peace on earth.
















me,sharlene,cal & grandma.











the crowd











the band singing.quite blur though.











the primary kids dancing to the song we're all in this together.












the form 1's dancing












ballet performance





















































sketch pictures.some are blur.












choir performance together with the sketch.
























the dance performance by the form 3s.
























other pictures.













us again.lol.







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that's all for christmas concert pictures.now prom pictures.

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steph,sharlene,me & kim.














kim,me & steph.















me & steph.














me & suba.


















kim & steph.





















kim & me.







whoever wants more of their pics ask me urself larh...i'm tired of uploading pics here...

anyway slept alot yesterday...practically being a pig...maybe abit worst than a pig larh...haha...the whole day was spend on sleeping...but well...got woke up by my mum asking me to get ready as my aunt gonna belanja us...mwhahaha...thx to my bro...i was hungry shit..his church thing which i have no idea wad finished at 7.30...!!!crap wan larh...waiting at my grandma house for so long...plus i cant understand what are my grand & aunt talking about...sad....

went to plaza pelangi and eat...saw cal there...lol...she ta pau-ing home...lol...after we eat...mum went to mcd to ta pau my dad food...and my aunt saw her friend...and her friend kids...zomg...they're so cute....eyes so freaking big...ahhh...i'm gonna kidnap them...hahaa...but they damn smart lerh...smart cute kids...they are gonna be mine soon...although i dont really like kids...lol...

i think i'm done blogging...such a long entry which cost me alot of time as blogger is crap...duno how many times i have to re-upload the pictures...gets on my nerves alot...infact i almost went ka boom...and after a few hours...it's done...yay...will update more stuff next time...till then bye...i need to work on something which is due wednesday and i have no idea how unless serah is online...(which most likely she would be in maple)...so people...i'm not going school on wednesday..dont even try getting me to school...

ps : sharlene is off to her vacation...ahhh....enjoy ur time ba...haha..dont be gone for too long though...

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