title: I am BACK...weee
TRIALS is OVER...yayness... Time for... MERDEKA...!!! I don't think i will blog about merdeka...since tracy and fann already blog about it...and theirs is like super duper semangated kind of post...bleh...yup...can go and check out tracy's blog or fann's blog....seriously totally semangat-ed malaysian...hahaha... Basically merdeka is all about the same freaking thing larh...every year 31 august...we celebrate that we're independent...wow...i dun have the freaking mood to blog about merdeka now...trials already killed all my brain cells... and i seriously am in a bad mood...i shall trey to avoid being emo here...so i shall just stop...before i start crapping...> |
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title: I am
Well...someone just tell me what to do...?? Everytime i try to make things better... it get worst...instead of the better... Everytime i asked you that question... all you said is dunno... Everytime i tried to talk... you avoid me... IT DOESNT HELP...god dammit... _____________________________________________________________ I duno what's wrong with me... I duno what's wrong with you... I duno what's wrong with them... I duno what's wrong with us... I duno what's wrong with the world... everything seems to be wrong... wrong time.. wrong place.. wrong person... everything is freakingly wrong for me... and you expect me to cheer up or be happy about it... i am mentally emotional now... something in my heart is weighing me... and it's getting heavier each day... and all everyone expect from me is to try and be happy... try not thinking about it... you think i can control my damn mind from thinking about that topic... everytime i try and avoid it... something just have to make it worst... i tried running away... i tried...but i got too tired of running... someone help...pls... i want to give up... but at the same time... i dun feel like giving up what i have been waiting for all this while... i want to go to heavan and ask god... what will happen next... because i'm so tired of waiting here... damn.i am done blogging about my life. merdeka is coming...which is after trials... so yeap...suffer before enjoying... and i seriously cant get into the studying mood now. and seriously sorry to all the people who got me in a crappy mood. if i ever said anything hurtful...sorry. who do you turn to when the person who can stop you from crying is the person who made you cry?? found some new avatar.but rushing for time.so i shall just put some of them   bye. |
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title: Damn.
I was sitting in my car yesterday...wondering wad would happen if i die... and i totally cant imagine it... i mean leaving all my friends & family... well...as usual emo-ing yesterday about being short...and thx u nenek...for telling me how many advantages does short ppl have...i guess i should be lucky i m short huh...lolx...the only time i was happy i m short is the time i bought 11 kids tickets...lolx... I am seriously bored. Everyone is studying.sigh.exam is a bad thing. i hate exams. Well anyway...holidays are ALMOST OVER...damn... the second season of trials is coming soon...haih...well...i guess we're kinda unlucky right...have part I & part II for our trials.. Went to tuition today...well...basically tuition is wad i need now...because i cant seem to get my head into the mood of studying at home...too many distraction from my bro...well you see...he's been playing the damn comp for so long...not caring about his homework...damn...it sux wei...to see him so free & easy...doing none of his homework... Nevermind bout that...today tui...did mostly maths...and yes...while we're discussing...mrs woodhull said that... Some people did a survey and they found out that... 70% of the students in university are girls... 30% are boys.... so which is the correct excuse for them... a) guys are not interested for a higher education. b) less guys in malaysia (which i doubt it) c) guys are more stupid. d) guys doesnt have pressure from their parents. well...wonder wad's the reason wei... lolx...anyway...i finished the book...wee....unbelievable...i finish it...!!! i finish crapping larh... will you believe wad you see or wad you hear..?? grandma said : seeing is believing...but what you see may not be what it seems... haih so should i believe wad i see or wad i hear...?? |
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title: Happy Birthday Kim aka my daughter...!!!
How come so many people birthday on august...??No fair sial...my past few posts..first it was tracy's bday...then mel's bday...and now kim's bday....oh well...at least sumthing for me to post about right...so to kim : Happy 15th Birthday...may god bless you in everything you do...and yeah...get 7A or Anyway...i went out again to tebrau...have been going out this few days...no studying...ahh...i m gonna fail my trials...like wad mrs.woodhull said...8 hours per day....oh great...i am offically KNOWLEDGE=96% HARDWORK=98% ATTITUDE=100%...but well...we counted that.... LAZINESS=105%... which means...we cant get rid of laziness...sad case... After coming bck from tebrau...had headache...so i went and sleep...as usual...i m currently deaf when i'm asleep...the alarm ran out of battery after ringing for so long...whoopzz...not my fault...bla bla bla....went for bm tui...and sir told us...starting from next month...we all shall go back at 9.45...cute-ness...well...i like bm tui...infact i like tui...because if i were to study at home...i would probably fall asleep by myself or start finding other stuff to do... wad should i do now.. seriously...i'm lost now...like some part of me is missing... maybe it's just me...welll...the o pathetic me wad... wad do i deserve to be happy & stuff... i'm like a jinx to everyone... everything i do doesnt work out the way it's suppose to... why should i even try to make it right... when it will always end up worst... i dont think the all so happy people will even know the low sad me here.... they're too happy with their own life... they just think of well...she'll get over it soon... she's always emo-ing... well...yeap...leave me alone then... Lastly happy birthday to kim again...u're another year older...* claps hand* i shall
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title: Happy Birthday Melanie aka mellie my mummy...!!!!
Anyway...maybe you be blessed this whole year...hahaha...sorry for not being able to pass you your present on time...but well...yeap...i hate you...because the shirt is nice...i want it...haha...jk larh...how can i hate my mummy wei...unlikely right...lolx... I got up today & realised it's sun...omg wei...my maths & science homework...well...i still manage to do like half of it...in 30 min...lolx...so went to tuition...as usual....mrs.woodhull started talking about pmr...and she said...if you get 2/3A's...you definitely wont be getting 7A wan...the pattern are all the same..damn...it's scary wei...putting more pressure on me...yeap...and i couldnt do the maths...but after she marked it...i got the other 3 done in no time...funny wei... I went to jusco today...accompanying my bro watching garfield 2...yeap...wanted to watch click...but i already watched it yesterday with tracy they all...so too bad...reach cs...i start hunting for mel's present...i ended up in jusco...trying to figure out whether is that size suitable for mel...but well....tracy is eating marh...so i just have to figure it out myself...so i went n try out... guess wad happen... when i was trying out...some sissy-fied guys came in the fitting room next to me...and gawd...i was actually being bengang-ed for once...all sort of noises wei...man...dun even know how many of them in there larh...disgusting wei...eww....nevermind about that...i was even shocked when sumone attempt to open my fitting room... dammit...that guy so deserve to get slapped wei...but well...i didnt larh...i was being kind...after i changed into the shirt...i open the door...looking pissed at them...yeap...i think there were scared & quickly said sorry...well...luckily they did...or i would probably lose my temper at them...lolx...and well...i finally decided on the size of the shirt...yeap...my money...ahhh.... when i was paying...the woman behind me...heck...was a noisy wan larh...her friend asked whether there's comel brand for her small daughter...but well...that woman...wonder wad's wrong with her...went and say...later the cashier perasan he comel larh...i was like wad de...trying not to laugh...and yeah...she was looking at me one kind...man...i m normal...perfectly fine...unlike her... wonder wad's wrong with people nowadays...so many weirdo characters...i thought i was the weird wan...peh...i guess....there's always someone better huh....after that i went & eat...my bro started asking me whether is there any place which sells soft toy...(he's secretly planning to buy for his gf i think)...babi him...duwan tell me...nevermind...i will have my ways of finding out... went & watch garfield...i love the dog wei...so cute...see the pant...the voice was super cute-ness...man...the dog...cute wei...ahh...i m like obssess with dogs....i just cant control myself...well...after that we went home...i better go...tomorrow shall be better...i hope...lolx...holidays...wee...just love it...but yeah...if you're having pmr or spm...you're stuck at home studying for the damn trials... so people study hard until you drop dead...then we can all celebrate...wee.... just joking bout the dropping dead part.... |
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title: Convent 19th Installation Day.
Live The Moment,Blaze A Trail.  The banner I didnt manage to post it yesterday...guess why...my stupid comp hang when i was almost done...man...i spend like 80 mins on the damn post...and it freakingly got deleted...i hate this comp larh...well...i gave up...because i was seriously tired & was suppose to wake up tmr to go cs...yipee... Anyway...yesterday..went to school...start completing the deco...was spraying serah fonts when suddenly serah came up to me and ask me help with something...ah yeah...as i was a bit deaf...i didnt exactly heard wad she said...so just followed her...something bout doing the shirt...i was thinking maybe writing the name...oh...big mistake wei... The shirt's werent done at all...oh yeah...and serah is suppose to paint it...wad de hell wei...so anyway...me,serah yi th'ng & zoey...started getting to work by painting...as u see...only i cant paint...so i just outline the pattern...wee...yayness...but at least we got like 20 shirts done...although it's messy...but man...feel damn gud wei...lolx..  The shirt...nice huh...??*perasan-ted..* After painting...we went done...cause it was already like...10.45...waearing the shirt we painted...we went to the hall...hoping the shirt is alright...screw that stupid guy larh...rehersal started already...the seniors were dancing...and then it was time to get changed...went and have something to eat...as my stomach wasnt feeling so good since morning... Well...basically...the dance was nice...we manage to did the sketch with humilating ourselves even though we didnt practise at all...the food was nice...the band was ok....presentation nice...brick wall was nice too...and the backdrop...i love it wei...plus the banner...yayness...the games was fun...lolx...the first game we played...was the odd one...those who possess the characteristics mentions must come up the stage and do sumthing...well...it was funny larh...although i didnt like the pole dancing...but at least i am not the one doing it...hehe... The third game was nice also...something like copying wad your partner on the other side is doing...yeap...girls vs guys...lolx...well...was standing beside wai mun...and i was practically laughing non stop...the both of them were totally crazy man...and seriously the best couple...beside chris and steph chang larh...well...i truly salute chris larh...i mean he start kneeling down...praying then kowtow....and started rolling on the floor...man...i was laughing until i almost died...when i see stephanie following him... And then we had a photo-taking session...then started cleaning up..i feel so sad wei...we actually have to take down all the deco...i mean it's like hard work man...so sad...especially the banner...and the brick wall...but well...at least i have the pictures of it...hehe...  The backdrop...love it...  Zoey's board  The band.  The dance.  Group picture. The sketch picture couldnt be loaded due to some problems...dammit... Today went out to celebrate tracy's birthday with sharlene,sarah,alex, & samuel..the 6 of us went and watch click..saw some of the form 5 seniors...lolx...was kinda funny larh...then went & take neoprint...lolx...tradition wei...sharlene & my bday we also took neoprints...then went walking around until sarah went back...so we(tracy,me n samuel) three sesated ppl...went n look for sharlene and alex...lolx...  The neoprint...me n sharlene look super pale wei. After sitting awhile with them...waiting for them to eat finish...we went home... i have to go now...wasting alot of time blogging... Whenever i look back... i will always remember those words you used to said... which is left in my memories.. never to be heard again... because you're not the person i knew who said those words anymore. |
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title: I dont feel happy.
And yes..i dont know why...dammit larh... i just have to be in a bad mood when i have exams and stuff... just ruins my concentration... well...things just have to appear one day before the exam larh... aih...seriously... i need some counseling man...very badly... emotionally unstable... Oh well....percubaan started today... damn...now i know why the teachers hate percubaan... ok well...they dun really hate it larh... WE DO...because all they say is...study study n study... well...i screwed up bm...paper 2 sastera...i totally cock sumthing up...which i have no idea wad... pn.saliah's gonna kill me...soon... sej was still considered okay...maybe i spend too much time studying it...but i still did sum careless mistakes...haixx... but i feel so proud of myself...i woke up at 4am just to study sej... first time wei..i must be mad... Anyway...tmr bi...yayness...i think i gtg...i need sleep... |
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title: Good or Bad Thing-PMR postponed??
Well...the good thing is....geo,kh,maths,science is after the holidays...yayness...get to study more...& we have more time to prepare for installation day...yipee...that's great...the bad part is...my whole week of holiday is ruin...no going out...aih...at first is was suppose to be from the 7-11 of august....then it got changed to the 14-18 august...and now it got postpone...to the 16,17,28,29 & 30 of august...bleh... Just finish watching summer live concert on 8tv...lolx...alot of ppl went...lolx...10 thousand...wow...i didnt know danga bay was so big man...lolx...anyway...was quite nice man...lolx....from the tv larh...lolx...i heard from tracy grandma is there...ishkk...babi larh....hahaha.... Gtg...i need sleep...shall post next time... |
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title: Shocked by serah & suba. WARNING
Serah & Suba are dangerous humans. I learnt some new things today. 1.Never ask serah or suba how many long lights are there on stage. 2.Never do anything alone.Because someone might come behind you & push you. Guess how i learn this stuff wei...DURING INTERACT DUTY...we're cleaning up about 5...that's where serah & suba starting being crazy...i was busying arranging the fonts for the backdrop...thinking they were doing the flames...but NOOO...those mean fellas.. suddenly came out & pushed me...i SCREAMED due to the shocked i get from being pushed so suddenly..and they started laughing...man...they're insane...the worst is still behind larh...they just have nothing to do...i swear... me : suba...there's four lights right??i never notice be4 wei... suba : no...only three larh...*giving the shocked face* serah : siwei r...dun act liao larh... me : wad larh...there's four lights...*looking at the last one* serah : aiya...i know you wana scare us larh...dun play liao larh... me : serah,i'm serious...there's 4... suba : wait i go & on the lights...you see..suba on the lights... me : correct larh...four lights.... serah : no...there only three larh..see...one two three...*pointing at the three lights* me : but hor...there's another one at the end...*pointing at the last light*... suba : no larh siwei...stop acting already larh... me : i m not joking larh... suba : dun gimme that shit larh...i saw you acting be4...damn good wei... 2 juniors passed by...suba went and call them... me : how many light is on the stage...?? juniors : er...3?? me : oh f*ck... juniors went off.. me : wei...i swear there's four lights larh... suba : where's the light...is it same like the others... me : there on top of the painting...yes...same... suba : there's nothing there larh...i m trying to imagine it... me : erh...stop scaring me larh...now i dun dare go toilet liao larh... suba : serah...i think siwei is still shocked about us pushing her larh...haven recover yet. serah : yeah larh... me : no...i was joking just now...but now i m serious...there's really four lights...!! suba : oh gawd...siwei is seeing things... serah : stop staring at it liao larh... me : ok...i go get my bag...who wants to follow me...?? saw natalie...called her down...because my eyes never make a fool of me before...!! suba : how many lights are there...?? natalie : three... me : wad de...nooo...i think i better go home now... suba & serah : there's four lights larh... me : huh... natalie : sorry...she pulled my shirt... me : omg...fook you guys... suba & serah laughing on stage!!! See how dumb i am...to actually believe them...ishk...they really damn terrible larh...argghh...nvm nvm...babi them larh....actually scared me to the hell man...gawd...they acted like so real wei...damn them larh...they tortured me for half an hour saying there's only 3 lights there...arggh...i almost went into mental shockness...didnt want to go to school anymore....peh... Si Wei |
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title: When it all falls apart I'm having the day from hell, It wasn't all going so well (before you came) And you told me you needed space, With a kiss on the side my face (not again) And not to mention (the tears I shed) But I should have kicked your (ass instead) I need intervention Attention to stop temptation to scream Cause baby Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart Gotta pick myself up where do I start Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart No Don't know where I parked my car Don't know who my real friends are (anymore) I put my faith in youWhat a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours) And not to mention (I drank too much) I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch) I need interventionAttention to stop temptation to scream Cause baby Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart Gotta pick myself up where do I start Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart No Can it be easier? Can I just change my life? Cause it just seems to go bad everytime Will I be mending? another one ending once again Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart Gotta pick myself up where do I start Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart No [x2] Falls apart Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up this song is seriously stuck in my head... everyone is in a bad mood this week... maybe because the trials is coming soon...so everyone is currently stress out... start getting pissed easily...i admit i was also pissed alot this week... anyway..been thinking just now... i guess i really change....alot..even i cant believe who i am now... argghh...i shall stop going emo here larh... gotta study for my trials...as i spend the whole day outside...aih... |
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title: I finally found a new blogskin man.after so many days..
and the people who got tortured by me...especially serah,tracy & sharlene...seriously sorry... i am super fussy...yeah...i know... lolx...anyway...now back to blogging... life is busy...freaking trials coming...yeah...and it sux larh... and seriously i dun have the time of my life to actually sit down for more than 3 hours to actually study for it...yeah i know...i m lazy...i m a pig...peh... Monday Holiday...!!!Well all i do is spend my time at home studying....yeap...that's the only time i have to actually concentrate fully 100% on studying...at least i went through abit larh...had tuition at night...and guess wad...gerak gempur was on tuesday...i totally forgot bout it...great... Tuesday Freaking Wednesday Skip 4 periods of classes for sketch...pn mary is so good to actually gave us permission after trying to persuade her for so long..anywaym,i love wednesday...because i can get to go back early and at least study bout 3 hours...yeap...felt so long since i sit bus wei...been staying back everyday except for wednesday...haixx...anyway...steph came to my house...ended up studying together...yeap....3 of the puppies died...haixx...why larh...people are so irresponsible nowadays...1 died of sickness,1 died because it got bitten by dogs...the other 1 got knocked down by a car...the one i like the most...haihh... It's a living thing for god's sake...and the mother went through so much pain n misery just to give birth to it...u could accidentally knocked it down...and the mother suffer so much for them...they died...how UNFAIR wei...well...at least the puppies are at the vet there...waiting for someone good to adopt them...maybe they have a good life ahead...because staying here is not really lucky.... Thursday Skip 4 period of classes again...isnt it just so great...yeap...but of coz we had permission...lolx...then stayed back for interact duty again...paint the brick wall with julia,yi th'ng n fannie...i seriously sux in painting...haixx...i feel so guilty...i cant paint at all...haixx....sad case man...went home after cleaning up...then went for tuition...serah wifey was there early...yayness....i was kinda pissed at night though... Friday Didnt skip class...as we didnt have permission...so yeah...study in class...bla bla bla...then went up to bilik tayangan & waited for the seniors to come & look at our sketch...and there we go...we missed 1 masa after recess...and thx to fann...i manage to go into class...though got scolding at the stairs...who cares...i was panicking until i had stomach pain edi...so yeah teacher...i wasnt acting at all...!!!!Lolx...after school went to mel's house...did our science...lolx...went for woodhull's tuition after that...wed's group join us...wee...cool....did revision for maths & science...and as usual...homework...haixx...i shall just die doing all larh... After tuition went home...and start on-9 ing after that...see larh...distraction...i hate myself man...i just cant control myself...maybe cause i haven found a skin since 1 week or 2 week ago...yeah...i take a super long time to decide...whoopz...so anyway...i shall stop my crapping here...will blog next time..i m so totally addicted to the song when it all falls apart by the veronicas & boston by augustana...i must be mad...haihh...i guess i am... I shall make some rules & follow it. 1.Cut down on my online time & start more revision. 2.Pay more attention in classes. 3.Dont change my skin until after my pmr.(i hope i can stop myself from doing it) 4.Practise my piano. 5.Sell my install ticket.Who wants it??Arggh... 6.Stop being like a pig & sleep less... I guess that's all i can think for now...yipee...i shall try to follow it man.... Anyway...i haven done the comment part yet...no time...infact...is lazy...lolx... Si Wei |
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