Courage - the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery

Tonight, I wish I was more courageous.

I wish I wasn't afraid. Afraid that everything might not work out.
Too afraid to admit those feelings I have, for it might ruin everything we've built.
And I know I don't have anyone but myself to blame for.
I would just say life is full of too much unexpected events, that sometimes you can't keep up with it.
For once, I feel terrible, for myself.

I'm sorry heart. Forgive me for being selfish.

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EXCO 10/11 & Coaches

Been super tired the whole week I feel weak.
Haven't actually been feeling like that since ages, especially when it got worst that I had to took 4-6 panadols and yet no effect at all. Yea and if you see a girl limping to lectures and classes, it's most probably me!

I practically slept my whole weekend away. I bet I was barely awake for 12 hours during the weekends. Wonderful...but hey at least I did some of my homework, can't afford to screw up my studies anymore.

Next week is gonna be another hectic week with performance trainings for red camp literally everyday, more projects and assignments...AND THERE'S NO MORE 15 MINS GRACE PERIOD! SHIT!


Have you ever wondered where you would be if you haven't chose this road?
Would you go back and take a different route?
Would life been better?
Maybe people would stop expecting too much from me.
Let's face it, I'm not smart,pretty or popular.
I'm just an ordinary girl, stop putting high hopes on me.

It's so hard when you know how to fix other people lives but not your own.
Infact, I don't even know what has to be fixed because life has been kinda good to me.

People don’t want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Because what would they have left? Just the big scary unknown.

♥Si Wei

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I think this blog is pretty much dead.

No one's gonna come here anymore. Ah well, even better for me to rant my feelings :)

Another new sememster started,

New friend,

New tutors...

New modules and also

New responsibilities.


I pondered a lot at night thinking whether I made the right choices.
Have you ever felt like you want something so badly yet you're afraid to receive it?
For it might change your life completely.
I want to stay the same. A simple wish yet so hard to achieve.
Someone told me " the only thing that's constant is changes" ...very true to the extend it scares what would become of me in the future.
Because changing can means you're changing for the better or for the worst, yet it's unavoidable.
And sometimes I think we just need to know how to deal with our disappointments.

I'm tired. Mentally & physically.
If you're not gonna help, please don't add to my workload.

♥Si Wei

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