title: Pirates of the Carribean ok..i m not really in a gud happy mood to post bout the hapy outing today...should i shall cut it short...potc 2 is nice...very nice...!!That's all...
  my daughter,brianna..quite cute.lolx.happy bday to u...Anyway...i shall stop bout the happy part & start my moody part...because if i keep it more,i might just explode.Here goes... Haih...why m i so stupid larh...?? I hate the whole world... because they just wun let me be myself. I wish someone would take me away...from this cruel world...a place where the word "unhappiness" doesnt exist... but noo...nobody is kind enough to do that...they just leave you alone to rot & just fade off like you never even exist... I thank everyone for reminding me i sux at everything.i really appreciate it very much. in fact i dun feel anything anymore...not because i'm stronger. it's because i dun have the strength to tell myself that i'm not that kind of person... everytime i want to be myself...sumthing just pop up & reminded me... that i shouldnt be myself...because my friends hate my true self...so i just trying to be a person i'm not... pretending i m happy with my all so gud life...because i have everything they dun... well...look at it this way...i would give up everything for wad they have...but.....thats kinda impossible... so just get on with my all so good life...pretending i m the luckiest person on earth...when i dun have a single thing... sumtimes...i rather not know any1...not because i dun like them... it's just...sumtimes...they think they understand you more than they think... when they did take notice...about wad's happening to me...because they think i'm always alright...no matter wad... i'm a human also okay...i will feel sad too.. & when the whole world seems to be falling apart...no one is there beside me... no one i can hold on to...& every1 just leave you with all the problems to yourself...enjoying their happy life... without even remembering they have a friend...who needs them very much... who just wana hear "i'll be right beside you...dont worry.."...they just ignore that part... i guess if 1 day i were to die...no one would even bother saving me or coming to my funeral... so if one day i died...every1 in the world would be happily singing...thanking god...i'm not there already... sumtimes...i wonder...wad will true friends do when you need them the most... maybe nothing at all... haihh...life was never fair to begin with... |
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